CASE #11: KARLA + TRENT
SUBMITTED BY: KARLA
LENGTH OF RELATIONSHIP: On and off for 5 years & 3 weeks.
INFO: Here is a submission. I don't know if it fits - use your judgment. Me and Trent dated for about three weeks and tortured each other on and off while living in different cities for, oh, I'd say five years after that. I never understood his motives or feelings and as a result I think I gave his intellect way too much credit. That is the reason you're reading this now and he never did. This is an 'unsent'. I thought I wanted to send it to him so I could have closure but my friend Christine informed me it was just my ploy to get him to prove me wrong. Fuck you Christine... but she was right. He wouldn't have got it anyway. I wrote it after the last time I ever saw him. It's kind of funny how much unfulfilling time I was willing to waste on him simply because he's so so pretty. Note the attempt to save face at the end.
Everything in this life is impermantent. Every particle arises and falls into and out of existance a billion times every moment. Nothing stays. And I'm going home. With all this changing happening I don't have time to always be second guessing myself. I realize now that you won't be considerate of my feelings nor do you understand my nature or my intentions, despite all of my efforts. I think you are a good person. I find you to be sweet and fascinating and so I have tried to get to know you and be your friend. I have let myself be vulnerable to you even when chances were in favour of my appearing foolish. At your persistence, I risked coming here so you could see my interest in you and have fallen on my face...again. I can laugh at myself but I think the game is over for me. I have found reasons to enjoy it for a while but it tires me now. If you ever decide what it is that you want from me, let me know; I'll probably give it to you. I like you that much. But I do not understand you and you make me sad.
Don't waste all of your money at that casino.