Wednesday, October 19, 2005


LENGTH OF RELATIONSHIP: On and off for 5 years & 3 weeks.

INFO: Here is a submission. I don't know if it fits - use your judgment. Me and Trent dated for about three weeks and tortured each other on and off while living in different cities for, oh, I'd say five years after that. I never understood his motives or feelings and as a result I think I gave his intellect way too much credit. That is the reason you're reading this now and he never did. This is an 'unsent'. I thought I wanted to send it to him so I could have closure but my friend Christine informed me it was just my ploy to get him to prove me wrong. Fuck you Christine... but she was right. He wouldn't have got it anyway. I wrote it after the last time I ever saw him. It's kind of funny how much unfulfilling time I was willing to waste on him simply because he's so so pretty. Note the attempt to save face at the end.




Everything in this life is impermantent. Every particle arises and falls into and out of existance a billion times every moment. Nothing stays. And I'm going home. With all this changing happening I don't have time to always be second guessing myself. I realize now that you won't be considerate of my feelings nor do you understand my nature or my intentions, despite all of my efforts. I think you are a good person. I find you to be sweet and fascinating and so I have tried to get to know you and be your friend. I have let myself be vulnerable to you even when chances were in favour of my appearing foolish. At your persistence, I risked coming here so you could see my interest in you and have fallen on my face...again. I can laugh at myself but I think the game is over for me. I have found reasons to enjoy it for a while but it tires me now. If you ever decide what it is that you want from me, let me know; I'll probably give it to you. I like you that much. But I do not understand you and you make me sad.

Don't waste all of your money at that casino.



Anonymous Tony said...

Casinos are bad places and wasting money in them seems silly.

On the other hand, so is love and all the bullshit that comes with it.

The moral... don't waste your time on love or in casinos. Also, that particles do rad things. I wonder if they enjoy eating pineapple as mush as I do?

7:12 AM, October 20, 2005  
Blogger everyoneisdoomed. said...

i enjoy eating pineapples thoroughly. mangos are also worth a chew.

11:07 AM, October 20, 2005  
Blogger said...

casinos are creepy as fuck... a great place to meet creeps. i don't know if that's what actually happened, but it's something to remember. for future reference and shit.

love, charles.

11:16 AM, October 20, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'd guess you would have to have a high level of intelect to work through the bad grammer misspelled words and awkward phrasing to understand what she is talking about. He was probably a dick and probably hates pineapples. I guess if you start off with oblique poetry you can really feel smarter than somebody.

11:43 AM, October 20, 2005  
Blogger said...

actually, it's spelled "intellect". you should probably check your spelling before you insult someone's intelligence. or wait, is that "inteligence"?

love, charles.

7:06 PM, October 21, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


4:54 AM, October 22, 2005  
Blogger said...

grammer = grammar.
goddamn that's funny.
and besides didn't you know that misspelling words is the new cool thing? It's like how peeing your pants was big in the 90's.
what.... really... oh jesus god mom was lying to me wasn't she?

love dwayne

10:38 AM, October 22, 2005  
Anonymous Diane said...

So let me get this right, anon? You read the letter and the only thing you could get out of this was that you did not like the grammar. What a d%^&!!!!!

If you don't have anything nice to say, shut up!!!! Better yet, go start a blog about your inability for compassion.

3:27 PM, October 22, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Everything in this life is impermanent. Every particle arises and falls into and out of existance a billion times every moment. Nothing stays. And I'm going home."

Powerful beginning. Like it has been said before, casinos suck!

1:05 AM, October 24, 2005  
Anonymous Miles Davis said...

"It's like how peeing your pants was big in the 90's. "

this is the one little ray of sunshine on this depressing-as-hell site. I love to hate to love it.

5:31 PM, January 26, 2006  

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